In the running!

So I haven't written in awhile.  I was taking a mini vacation from blogging about my binging and eating problems.  Honestly, I just feel like the boy who cried wolf writing this things with the same shit over and over.  I messed up, I hate myself, I want to cry, I need to go to bed, tomorrow is a new day, start over, yadda yadda yadda blah fuckin blah.  That's NOT an exciting blog and now I wonder why I only have 4 followers this time.

Lets talk some good shit.  So, I finally got my period, TMI yes ..BUT..there is a good story behind it that leads to more annoyances in my life.  Well, I honestly though  might be pregnant.  It made perfect sense, last period was in September, the ex ditched me October 20th, sex definitely occured somewhere before that and a missed pill also happened at one point that month.  Fast FWD to that Saturday and my pills were lost, definitely could have been possible but NEGATIVE test result!  I know this sounds sick and twisted and I definitely would have been pissed if I would have been carrying around my ex's baby that I haven't talked to since then (hell to the no, I do not need to, I am NOT that girl) but is it weird that I kind of was like hmm, well, if I am I would have it.  Fucked up right?  Not really.  I mean think about it.  I do NOT plan on getting into a relationship anytime soon.  I am not interested in anyone in that way and so who seriously knows if I will ever end up getting married and having the American dream because quite frankly I don't like being stressed over that shit.  Well really it doesn't matter because I am not going to be a mom and I am glad for that.

I signed up for a bodyspace profile on bodybuilding.com and BEST IDEA..EVER!  It makes me really stop and think about how many hot bodies, I mean people, I mean it makes me think about how many amazing people I haven't met yet :) 

I have also decided that my blogs will consist of the more interesting things that go on in my life, like for example someone deleting their facebook for a few days because they found themselves stalking me too much.  ;)  You still make me laugh, you know who you are (because I KNOW you will read this-text me when you see this!), but ur crazy..about me, I know, I know,...I am pretty awesome :)  or even this one..spending my birthday writing a paper and going to class.  WOW...28 has been boring..will someone please help spice this up?

I also decided that I will turn all of my negative thoughts into positive ones and so instead of blogging about how since Thanksgiving I have not been able to get back on track I will say things like today I finally pulled it together, prevailed over a ridiculous amount of annoyance today and made my macros!!!!

Last thing is this ...shut the fuck up Talia and do it!