Yellow diamonds in the light

Just another amazing bikini pro body!

I had  a really great weekend!  I actually went out and danced my booty off downtown!  MUCH NEEDED! For real who doesn't want to get a good grind from a bunch of drunk dudes when you are sober?  HAH no but seriously it was fun and I do enjoy it!  All I have to say is the over the knee boots gets em every time!  They are my absolute hands down favorite!  It definitely felt like we were out all night, ended up going to bed at 2:30 and guess what time we got up?  645! Yes, 645 AM, got dressed and hit the gym!  ARE YOU FOR REAL? YES!  I was by no  means awake, Nicole is much more of a morning person than I am (sorry if I wasn't holding up my end of the convo when we were working out), I need a good solid 2-3 hours, lots of coffee and a good breakfast before I can really enjoy talking to humanity. 

I posted in the bikini competitors webpage on Facebook just asking opinions on what the judges are looking for and if it's always going to be different.  I think I got the answer I needed.  I need to do whatever I need to do to feel confident up on that stage and I can already see because of all the damage I did even in just 7 days that the scale has scared me straight.  I am definitely not going to reveal what the weight was because I know that it's water weight and blah blah blah but even just the way I feel about myself.  In 7 days I lost the confidence I had up on that stage all because of food.  It's really hard to explain with words because it's mostly feelings and I have learned that I need to stop making decisions based on these feelings alone.  If I would have done that today I would be sitting here telling you about a massive binge but instead I can proudly say that I made the decision to make the RIGHT decision and learn from what I did wrong in the past.

My passion for doing these competitions grow more and more everyday and while I was debating on pizza and ice cream or chicken and veggies new pictures appeared from the competition, I started looking at other girls that competed this past weekend and I decided that a healthy meal was in order!  I want to prove to MYSELF that I can do this and reach my dreams and take the falls that come along with it but ALWAYS get the fuck back up!!!!!!