LOOK! LOOK! IT'S ME!! Honestly, I must tell ya'll this little story and if you read this Andrew, just know that you really inspire me to think more about what feelings I am engaging in and WHY. So I sent this pic to someone, hesitated to do so because well, sometimes we want to make sure we are making the right decisions and for myself, I have made PLENTY of wrong decisions that felt like the right ones in the beginning and then ended up not being right AT ALL. After sending it I then posted it on Facebook, also AFTER contemplating whether or not I should. So what gives? What's with all the contemplating? Well, I am someone that really could give two fucks what anyone thinks of me, what I am doing and what my goals are but what I DO NOT want to come across as is someone who is trying to seem better than anyone else. The decision to post this pick was related to the CONSTANT hard work I put in day in and day out to reach the goals I set out for myself. I am NOT a perfect person, I never will be nor do I strive to be but entering in the competition world was the BEST thing I have ever done for myself and I have finally found out who I am by doing so. I thank my trainer Ron for always being the one to set my mind straight!
It also severely helps to have so many people in my life that understand me. My two Jessica's, you girls both show me so much support, and I look up to both of you in SO many ways! I get to see my sister Ami in May! We understand each other sooo much it's crazy!! Can't wait to slumber party!! Chelsea and I will definitely meet at some point in our lives because we were also destined too. Whitney is a DAILY motivator for me. Kayla and Mimi you both rock my socks for always making sure I am doing ok and it's good to know that we have some real solid common ground. Sarah for also knowing exactly where I am coming from and pushing me as much as I can push her! My sexy west coast bestie Robin inspires me on the regular with her killer body. Derek who pushes me randomly when in reality are the times I coincidentally need it the most. All of my hole fuckers too!! I could keep going and going! All the people in Team Fit, all the girls in the Asipiring/Current competitors, Team Aspire, Fit Struggles, you are all amazing to me. Ginelle who I have met and grown to know recently who has been through so much, juggles so much, is stronger mentally than she thinks she is and the ability for her to keep going no matter what comes her way has been a blessing to me this year. I am so thankful I have gotten to know her and that we were able to do our internship together, a friendship that I KNOW will last a lifetime!! My bestie Nicole, who no matter what will tell me like it is and not what I want to hear, the girl who goes through life with me, by my side and has my back. Andrew, Andrew, you give me so much strength,you have no idea what you do to me. It's the best feeling in the world to know that someone can care about you in a way no one ever has before. To be able to feel that...feeling..that I have never felt before......
I just know that this process is NOT an easy one. It is not for everyone either and I do not expect people to jump on my train and join me eating chicken out of a bag or cold sweet potatoes from my car. I work hard for what I am doing, I make mistakes along the way but I am doing this for ME to reach MY goals and in no way shape or form am I trying to do anything else but yes, show off all of this hard work and dedication. I want to be an inspiration, I want to be Fitspo, I want to be a winner, I want to be a pro one day, I want to be on the cover of Oxygen one day or FitnessRX, hell anywhere in a magazing fequently and I know I won't get there unless I bust my ass!!!!
Lookin' good and LOVE the suit!
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