You know what? Why am I going so long without blogging? I love writing and I am always on this internet but yet I make no time to type? Weird.
Anyways, 3 fucking cheers for getting through my first two weeks of no binging! I also was on my period one of those weeks and so I have already made TONS of exceptions to things I never imagined I would be able to. I had progress pics taken this Sunday and the more I looked at them the more I thought to myself "whats really different? So I posted them for other people to see and knowing there are visible changes makes me really proud. I have been working so hard and I am so determined to reach my goals. Why shouldn't I?
Saturday my bestie and I went downtown, got dressed up, rocked the over the knees and had a blast. After that we went to another bar where some of my friends from work were at, all the while I did not eat anything extra or eat anything when we got back to her place, Sunday I hung out with friends from work, watched football and went to the bar and the whole time I had my food with me and ate when I needed. The most annoying part of Sunday was when I went to the bar with them. I no longer drink so I am already one out and so then they ordered 2 pizzas and they kept badgering me to just eat it, drilling me, etc. I actually really started to get pissed and said "I'M NOT GOING TO FUCKING EAT IT SO STOP ASKING!" Do people realize how dumb they sound? I think it's funny as they shove their drunk faces with food and I am sober and don't do it! BAM! #quitstuffingyourfatface
I have been getting better at swapping foods out and not eating more than I need to. Monday, today, I knew I was going to have dinner with my parents so I switched some things around but didn't over eat.
These past 2 weeks have been difficult and I have definitely been mad over food but I feel like I am slowly learning more and more about how to take control back. I am also learning that I need to stop looking and comparing myself to other people and just put in the work I need to put in to get the best body my body can have! In all honesty the pictures my friend took of me this weekend at the bar made me feel really good, I feel more confident, I am a chic, I like the comments, the attention and I feel like even with 2 weeks of eating healthy I have more self esteem than I usually do. I am not trying to sound cocky but if we aren't confident with ourselves how will we ever reach our own dreams. Considering my dream is to be a fitness/bikini model I NEED that confidence and now I know how to find it and keep it, eat healthy, exercise, rinse and repeat!
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