Check-in

1570/54/135/146.   My macro goal is 1564/56/150/140  :)

I don't really need to say anything else other than the fact that I am so dumb, really really dumb for real for always giving in to the devil on my shoulder waving around carbs.  I honestly do not understand why I always seem to do it the day before I weigh in, knowing that they have such an effect on my weight and appearance.  Oh well.  Seriously time to learn from that.  I have new macros which is AMAZING because I get 50 more grams of carbs than before and I can nom nom nom all day long on carbs, good ones of course.  Speaking of noming, really doesn't have anything to do with it but can you fucking believe that shit with the place McDonald's gets their eggs from?!  Unbelieveable that this shit still continues to go on.  I didn't even bother to watch it becasue my bestie gave it all away for me, and needless to say I had to say "STOP STOP STOP while she tried to tell me everything that they were doing.  It's videos like that that had me crying on my parents bed for 2 hours and lead me to vegetarianism.  It's true we hide ourselves from the truth, I know the truth but yet I still eat them :(  What can I say?  There are only so many different ways a girl can make tofu and damn I can't even iamgine being a vegetarian bikini competitor?!?!

Yes, by the way, now that we are on this topic of choice.  It has been brought to my attention on more than one occasion that I should not get bulky, big, manly or too muscular.  NEWS FLASH and I am sorry if this sounds mean but what I am doing does NOT involve getting bulky, manly or too muscular.  The competition world is hard to explain to people that don't do it but even harder to explain to those who don't make working out a priority in their life.  As a matter of fact it's even difficult to explain the process, the calorie counting, tracking, weighing, measuring, it really could be diagnosed behavior.  I don't want to be a mean nasty bitch and maybe I will come across as being such but it's kind of like this and like that and like this and uh... do your research.Thanks bye