What it takes to come alive

I just took new photos for my progress pics and all I can say is EWWWW. !!  I can't believe how much can change in such a short amount of time.  Honestly, it takes something like that to really get me focused and I wish I would have done it earlier.  I know I have to let it go and being close to show weight is NOT realistic.  I get that.  I am not going to sit here and think I will be at that weight all year round because I know it's not possible BUT... right now I am thinking no further than this.  SEEING what I am carrying around even though it's only 8 pounds it REALLY makes a difference.  Especially for crazy bitches like me who know my body, the changes, etc.  Anyone that works out regularly and has seen their body change knows EXACTLY what I am talking about.  We ourselves are the ones who can ALWAYS tell a MAJOR difference even if to other people it looks like nothing has changed.  Why am I randomly screaming certain words?  I just like to EMPHASIZE.  

Anyways in the words of Ron I am using them as "fuel for your fire"  It is what it is and it really makes a huge difference when you are a little lax on your diet and not paying as much attention.

My goal for the next week is to focus on reaching my new macros and really seriously hitting them everyday, not going over or under but like spot ON!  I have done it before and I know I can do it again and I guess it took chunky monkey progress pics to get me to recognize it.  So be it! It's ON!  How will I be in the top 3 if I don't put in the effort now?  How will I ever be a bikini model if I am lax on my diet.  Granted right now is a better time to do it than ever but still, if I want to improve I have to start now and not later like I did before.  I am not saying I have been doing bad, I am actually a lot better off than I was before and I am proud of that but after seeing these pics I need to take it up a notch.  You are probably wondering what's with the pics? Where are they?  All I can say is, they are going to be amazing before photos.  This is what it takes to come alive! Self motivation!!!!