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Actual:1590/54/145/139

Goal:   1564/56/150/140 (I think-and I am too lazy to go check)

Today, minus having to be around death was great.  I had the whole day off so I got to sleep in and just did my cardio a few hours ago with a friend of mine.  This friend I am super proud of because she is starting to really eat healthy and workout regularly again.  I am not going to lie and she knows this is true but she was such a difficult person to be around with her eating habits.  At one point she had drive thru cups in her rooms from 4 different places (and most of them weren't even hardly touched- a waste of money and calories if you ask me!)

I have also been having some crazy what if thoughts lately.  It's super crazy how the world brings things on when you aren't ready for them, just sits back and watches your life unfold.  I know I need to take life day to day grabbing it by it's reigns and going to the top of the world or where ever I want to go for that day.  I have learned from the past but I know I can not let it define me and I am trying NOT to do that but it is one of those things that's easier said than done.  Especially when it comes to relationships and this is not a time in my life that I need to be stressed out.  I do not like it.  I like where I am right now, chasing my dreams, reaching my goals, and whoever wants to travel with me on this journey is welcome.  I do not want to make irrational decisions anymore.  The only thing is if I leave some things behind or don't take that chance, will I miss out on opportunity that life is presenting to me?  Or am I being tested?  

Fuck it. livin how I want...